It has been a tough year for actress Nicole Kidman.

After losing her father from a heart attack, the "Paddington" star openly admits 2014 is not her favorite year, according to the Hollywood Reporter.

"Personally [it's been] really really really hard," the actress told the Guardian at the premiere of her latest movie in Sydney, Australia. "My family underwent a massive tragedy. So not my favorite year. But I try not to be ungrateful - I'm grateful to be alive."